IF your NAME IS MONICA,
I GIVE YOU alone PERMISSION TO MAKE A COPY.
Monica, monica, monica-
Where ARE you???
This morning was the 7th time the Holy Spirit put Monica on my heart.
A mystery woman.
I threw up...acid bile.
I was crying.
For Monica.
It hurt.
I have NOT felt but EXPERIENCED such sorrow...anger...rage so hot that fire is shamed.
None of these emotions are mine. Not when I experienced them.
I begin to pray in the private tongue God has gifted me THROUGH His Holy Spirit...
after a few pleas, I start to weep. Anger. Sorrow. Dismay. None of these mine.
I am only a spectator as I trust the words that the HS pours out of my mouth.
I am a vessel. A very cute vessel who loves God and EXPERIENCES His love for whom I pray.
HE loves YOU SO MUCH.
He delights in me.
I love him.
He confuses me.
I trust him.
Monica...
Understanding comes slowly-
FIRST: when I received the name, I did not recognise it: MON-NI-KAAH...Monn Nika...Monica!
SECOND: Prayed emphatically on my WAY 2 Bible Study. THIRD: Prayed before dinner on the cold back porch. We agreed in prayer for Monica as our pizza grew as cold as I was. FOURTH: On my way home- I RAGED. I screamed my lungs out and it felt GOOD. FIFTH: I cried. Monica has...lost a child?SIXTH: I WEPT. I bawled my eyes out. Don't die... SEVENTH: Same old, old tears...I threw up- for YOU. Yuck...bile...acid...panting. You have so MUCH in life! Your God, your parents, husband, relatives...friends.
God loves YOU.
God KNOWS what YOU are going THROUGH.
God is right BESIDE you, Monica.
Love. Trust. Know He CARES enough to plead and intercede!
THESE PHOTOS ARE FOR YOU, AND you ALONE.
YOU
ARE THAT
SPECIAL
<3
LOVE
YAHWEH ABBA
PAPA, DADDY
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